I will be.

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I will be. Things are all upside down. I hate life, alot. Yes, i am that disobedient girl, i know you hate me too. Family problems, who dont have them. Mine is just a little too dramatic. I am rude, really rude. I know that myself. I talk back like a spoilt child, i know that too.

You tell me how rude i was once and i heard it. I dont change over night and i hope you can understand. 15 years. As my parents, im sure you know me well enough. I am as stubborn as a bull. I want things to go my way and i hate to be told what to do. Isnt that what i have always been since day one.

I know you want me to excel well in my studies. I know you meant me good. But have you shot your words like bullets, you never thought how i feel. Not at all. Have you ever once thought of the consequence that your words will bring. Why do you want to pick up a fight with me every single time. I cant seem to communicate with you, not anymore. Ever time we speak, we end up quarreling. You think i want it? I just want you both to understand me a little more.

How will you feel one day when you heard it with your own ears your own parent saying they want to disown you. You said that to me in the morning and i really dont know if you mean it. How do you think i felt at that point of time. DISOWN, a huge word.

I maybe smiling and laughing like it doesnt even affect me. But tears just are so uncontrollable. When family is being brought up in class, yes i teared. I dont want to lose my family. I want you to just understand me.

Yes, i am tearing now when i type everything out, because i want to pour out my feelings to someone or just something. I may sound like some crybaby, but if you were in my shoes, i bet you will feel exactly the same.