FML.

SO SCREWED UP. TOTALLY. -.-

Why everday like this. i'm very tired of always having to scream at you. I know im rude. Like very rude. You think i want to be like this is it? You gave me no choice. I beg you to stop creating problems for us. Really. Why are you even comparing what we have for lunch. Thats likie a very small problem you know. I mean that isnt even a problem. You want to have the same thing as us? We give you. You don't have to create so much problems right. Can't you be as loving as the others? I want a loving one. Not someone that scolds everytime you need attention. Not someone who tries to attract everybody's attraction by shouting so loudly. I want someone that cooks our meals, make me feel comfortable telling you my problems, ask how i feel everytime fall sick. Or maybe, just someone that just ask how was my day outside.

But no, i know you cant understand what we are speaking. Let me tell you, i cant understand you either. At least try to understand mandarin. But what you do everytime i come home? Ask why i so late back? Ask me if mum dont pick me, i dont want come home? Ask me if i was playing in schl instead of studying? I tired. Very tired. I'm so jealous of my friends everytime they post up something in their blog/ fb/ twitter about theirs, being do caring and loving. Why i dont have. Thats the basic. Something i just want.

we tell you many times the right thing to do, but they fall on deaf ears. Put that aside. i try to explain everytime you blow up, but you just raise your voice so much higher, that piss me off. Can't you talk properly? You are the elder, you are suppose to teach us. Even those at the ofh tells me moral values. But you never once. Never. I dont blame you.

lastly, i just want to say, no matter what, you'll still be my grandma. That fact wont change. I just want you to show some care. A little will do. :'(