A sincere post.

I'm just here doing a really deep-to-the-bottom-of-my-heart post. I feel apologetic for everything I'm doing. I know how I don't think before acting, especially when I'm annoyed. I just blast. And I know I've hurt a lot of people.

Sorry grandma, for shouting at you all the time.
Sorry dad, for throwing my temper at you.
Sorry mum, for being rude.
Sorry sis, for screaming at you even tho you did nothing.
I have a lot more sorries to go, but I guess it'll take till tmr. I can't possibly name every single one here. I know how my actions sometimes reflect alot, and yes that I am sorry for.
I don't know how many million times do I have to apologize to make up for my mistakes. But I just want to reach out to all those I've hurt and give an apology.

I want to be a better granddaughter.
I want to be a better daughter.
I want to be a better sister.
I want to be a better cousin.
I want to be a better friend.


Yup. I'm no longer going to dwell on this matter. I don't want my angers to always end up in tears. And I definitely don't want to start to tear everytime the topic is brought up...