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It's been a while since I last sat down and typed a proper blogpost. I've seen people typing facts about themselves on instagram and I was tagged by my cousin and Jeremiah but refuse to do it because I've already done one last year and I don't think I've changed a lot in a year. (wow that was one long sentence)
So I thought maybe I should craft a blogpost instead and come up with as many facts as I can.

WARNING: This post is going to be entirely about ME and if you have no interest knowing me or reading anything about myself please skip this post. (I won't be offended because I'd skip if I were u)(Just kidding, please read)

Ok here goes. Let me shamelessly add a picture of myself first.

I'm 18 this year, turning a year older every 24th March.
Currently a Yr2 Media student pursuing my education at Singapore Polytechnic.
Studied in Zhenghua Primary and Zhenghua Seconday. Definitely forged lasting friendships through the ten years I was in school.
I enjoy watching movies and doing films. Just did one three days ago, can't wait to show it to people.
Favourite colours got to be PINK and BLACK and WHITE. As much as I adore pink, you'll hardly or never see me in pink because I don't think I pull of colours well and that kinda sucks but it's ok i love being in black and white too.
(which leads me to my next point) I'm always in dark tones (black white grey dark blue). Please don't call me a boring person.
I like to be dressed in an edgier style like decked in leather jacket and boots and pants/shorts with tons of accessories like chokers and skulls and spikes and studs.
You'll still see me in skirts because I love skirts like crazy. Particularly bandage skirts and maxis.
My obsession with crop tops are quite over the top as well. You don't want to know how many pieces I own.
I love arm candies especially rings. All kind of rings from regular to statements to midis to knuckles, you name it. (Rings are arm candies too are they, or hand candies?)
I'm definitely a shoe lover. I have plans for an entire shoe cabinet to be placed in my wardrobe (that also means it's a walk in wardrobe).
Flipflops are my only option if i'm going to the market or chalet or anything chill. Otherwise, i love to be in fancy shoes.
I'm still wondering if i'll regret getting myself a pair of knee high gladiators.
I love high cuts and knee high boots. Really just anything knee high i'll love.
I spend too much money on perfumes.
I stand at 1.67m and am pretty satisfied with my height although I really aimed to stop myself from growing when I hit 1.65m.
My favourite body parts got the be my legs and fingers.
I have a soft spot for guys that are gentlemen. I mean what is there not to love about gentlemen.
My friends think I'm really weird because I love veiny arms and guys with shaved sides and tall guys and broad shoulders and deep voice. (I mean not that i'm weird for liking tall guys, but for the veins part.)
An ideal date - chilling and cuddling on the couch watching the tv. Awww
I love hugs (and hands at waist like I'll melt internally). Even if it's not done to me, I still love seeing it done to people arnd me.
Female crushes got to be Vanessa Hudgens and Nina Dobrev. Wait there's Lily Colins and Emma Watsons too.
Male crushes er, (prepare yourself for a really long list) Zac Efron, Hugh Jackman, Ian Somerhalder, Paul Wesly, Ryan Gosling, Jake Gyllenhaal, Dane Dehaan, Tom Felton (and it goes on forever I should stop first)
It gets on my nerves and turns me off completely if you are a person that is very negative to everything. I mean hello, get your negative vibes away from me.
I shower late at night so I get nice smelling hair the next morning.
I personally think I'm an awkward person. I really do appreciate people that strikes conversation first to break the ice. But if you're like my pal or friend for sometime already then you know i'm far from awkward.
I have a doggie, his name is Choco and he is a red poodle. (Notice I use 'he' not 'it'. I don't call my family member a 'it')
I want to have a 10 dogs in future more than i want to have kids. Can I have a Rottweiler first, then a husky, a Doberman, Alaskan Malamute, Golden Retriever, Shar Pei, Anatolian Shepherd...)
I can be quite a hopeless romantic and a sucker for romance. Even though I'm not attached or in love (i think...) I get very excited just listening and knowing people around me managed to find it.
I love love stories and cute couples then I know again movies are out of the world, nothing of sort really happens in real life.
I prefer hand made gifts and letters to luxury or fancy things.
I love piercings and tattoos. I only got two piercings now (boring...) and zero tattoos but really plan to have at least three in future. I have in mind where and what exactly I want already.
I've always wanted to be an air-stewardess and news broadcaster.
I find peace in working out and will do so every time I'm stressed out or feeling like utter bullshit. I don't know, but it just sets my mind at ease and makes me feel a lot better.
I constantly remind myself and live by quotes. "Fall 7 times, stand on eight", "Count your blessings, not your problems"
I'm a really lazy person that procrastinates a lot.
I am currently running a blogshop with Rachael @shopmybella
I think it's very attractive when someone is comfortable in their own skin instead of pretending to be someone they are not.
I rammed my feet into the legs of the sofa when I was a lot younger and now I suffer from post-kicking of the sofa legs. Serve you right Nerissa. But the pain I get now gets pretty unbearable at times.
I love getting tanned. But not my face. I know it's weird but really I only like tanned arms and legs.
My hands and feet turn cold very quickly in aircon rooms, even when I'm feeling super warm. So my cousins and sister never liked walking with me in winter because my hands are like ice cubes. lol (they are already ice cubes in aircon rooms idgi either)
I'm an animal lover. I once watched a video clip of a circus elephant going on rampage killing people then getting killed in the end. I actually only started tearing when the elephant got shot. (but I don't like monkeys...)
I don't consider myself an emotional person. I hardly let things get to me but when it does, it's quite scary because I can be sad/ disappointed for days and weeks.
I prefer keeping problems and reflecting it upon myself. A lot of times my friends will ask if i'm alright, sensing something is wrong (unless i'm close to going crazy, else I don't usually say them out) So, if I ever turn and mention anything to you please be happy cause you're someone that special and I know I can trust you.
I feel like girls are very hard to deal with (I know I'm a girl and I like being one) but you get what I mean right. Like it's very hard to please a lady and we are quite complicated people, compared to a guy and if given a choice I'd prefer hanging out with dudes. (I love hanging with my girlfriends too, this is most definitely)
Comfort food includes chocolates and ice creams.
I started part time job once I left secondary school. My first job was in a cafe. I miss working in a cafe lol.
I'm someone with strong individual opinions. And might come off as bossy when I can't get my point across.
I've been to India, Korea, Japan, China, Thailand, Taiwan blah blah blah. My favourite got to be India because it's the most meaningful and fulfilling trip.
I love love love love love ramen please if i can only choose one thing to eat for the rest of my life it's going to be ramen.
Or maybe like sushi. (Ramen is quite unhealthy right... the msg)
Thankful for supportive parents and friends. (actually very very supportive)
My favourite sleeping position is a ball. Seriously. I like curling up like a ball when I sleep. I know it's bad for the back and whatever but I do it a lot of times
Wearing a jacket to bed makes me feel very safe. (Not that my house isn't safe or anything la)
I hate needles and clowns and monkeys. Needles I really don't know why, I just shiver at the sight of them (don't ask me why I still want more piercings and tattoos. NOT THE SAME LA) Clowns because of the movie 'IT' by Steven King. You feeling like a brave kid, go ahead and google, don't say I never warn you. Monkeys because I visited a monkey island years back and got badly traumatised so never ever again do I want to be near monkeys.
I can come off as being fake and non-genuine. I get that from a lot of people. Like after they know me, they'll tell me they thought I was an arrogant stuck up bitch. (I really am not. So please be my friend. :))
I'm #teamapple #teamiphone #teammacbook.
The movie 2012 scared me quite badly. I really thought the world was ending. LOL
I love the length of my hair now and don't have plans of having rupunzel long hair anytime soon.
The last thing (and also going to be the last point) I want happen is to be lied to by people I love and trust. It's just not a nice feeling to be deceived and kept in the dark looking like a fool by the people you love right!

Ok, that's all, 60 facts about myself. I'm sure there are more but it's getting overwhelming so i decided to stop. Thank you for reading through (if you did!) you are one cool person and i love you. I hope you know more about me and I want to know more about you too!

Have a great week ahead dears!

I ask myself times and times again if I'm given a second chance, will I do things the same?

I ask myself if I had the ability to turn back time, will I bring myself to this point?

A point I'm so close to losing myself. It's as though I don't know who am I anymore.

I tell myself day in and out I'm alright. It's nothing much, I'm doing fine. I need no encouragements and definitely can do without words of reassurances. And till now, I don't know the answers to my feelings.

There's one thing i'm certain of at least. Disappointments. I'm disappointed in myself.

Why did I allow myself to come to a point of no return.

Why did I allow myself to immerse in fairytales.

Why did I allow myself become this rude and heartless person.

Why did I allow myself to think so much negativity.

Just what happened to 'Fall 7 times, stand on 8'. What happened to 'count your blessings not your problems'.

At this point at least. I just want nothing but to sit alone in my room all day, thinking of things I could have handled better. I struggle between decisions. So many, sometimes I feel suffocation. I feel uncomfortable.

I feel inferior. I feel like an absolute loser. I feel like I'm not worthy of anything. I just feel horrible about myself.

I curse, I swear, I vent my anger.

I know I'm wrong. I know I'll do better than that. But did I?

Will I start all over again?

Put down everything that's making myself unhappy. Be the person I am.

I know I'm braver than this, told I'm stronger than I believe.

Stop immersing myself in self-pity. That's pathetic.

Get up again. I'll be alright.

History is just hitting myself again. I'm used to. Right?

Tell myself people come and go. Focus one the ones that stay. Tell myself things aren't as bad as I made them sound. I'm over thinking. I'm exaggerating.

I'll be alright.

I'll be fine.

Don't give up, please don't give up just yet.